And just like that, it’s November.

October flew by, and I feel like I got a lot done. I’m feeling, professionally, really good. I’ll admit that I wasn’t in the best of mental states however, and that definitely showed in my lack of general output on here. Something that I don’t often talk about is that although my anxiety and depression is largely managed, I have occasional episodes that knock me off my game. This was October. Winston Churchill, riffing off a poem by Robert Bly, called his depression the “black dog”. I never really understood that metaphor until this past month. Every time I left for work, tried to do anything, tried to have fun…it felt like a stray dog was following me, preventing me from doing anything. I have a very high-charisma job, so giving it my all at work to keep things together meant coming home and collapsing. So, obviously making cutesy Instagram posts wasn’t happening. But whatever. I’m feeling better. I don’t say this to gain sympathy. I found it helpful to know that other people are also feeling like this, so I hope that if you feel like you an relate to the black dog, it’s not just you.

So, it’s the end of October. Just like that. I feel like I missed a whole month of my life. But here’s to the future!

Next Month

Welcome to October. This month's theme is home. I feel like I haven’t been spending enough time making my house into a home recently. I did a really good job when we first moved in, but as the months we’ve been in this rental have slipped by, it feels less and less like home, not more. Since this month is Thanksgiving, and the long cold winter is soon to arrive, I want to spend some time home-ifying my house.

What are your goals for this month?